Gordon
by Seaschellz
About a month ago, I found an injured bald eagle in my yard. He was sitting on the ground, which is not usual behavior for this beautiful raptor. After some "tense" (on my part), further investigation, it was discovered that the bird had been shot.
I contacted someone through the university, who put me in touch with a rehabilitation expert. The bird was transported to this person's special compound, and because I am off for this semester, I was able to visit almost daily and follow his progress. The damage was such that the eagle would have died without intervention. Such a beautiful, strong creature, that someone had shamelessly and purposefully injured.
It reminded of what the "N's" have done to myself, and the people that I have read about and followed on this board. Shamelessly and purposely injured beautiful, strong creatures, out of jealousy, fear, ignorance and "just because".
As I followed the eagle in its rehab, I watched it go from passive and resigned, as it allowed the handlers to administer to it, to more aggressive and cocky, as it regained its strength and dignity.
The rehab team has named him Gordon, and now that Gordon is feeling better, he has "taken" over the place. We can't wait for the day that Gordon can be released back to the wild, but it will also be a bit sad, because everyone loves him so much.
I identify with Gordon. I was injured and damaged, passive and resigned, not sure if I would survive this ordeal in one piece. But, I drew strength from watching this beautiful bird struggle.
I also drew strength from the experiences that I have read about on this board. The people here have suffered so much, but manage to extend "welcomes" to new members, offering love and support even though they themselves are still in pain, and dealing with the aftermath. That prompted me to decide to focus on my success.
I have decided to use Gordon, as my vision. I realized that if Gordon could overcome his trauma, so could I. When I find myself thinking about the N, and our "past" life, I stop and try to think about Gordon. Participating in Gordon's recovery has given me something positive to dwell upon.
When I am feeling down, I reflect on your insight and remind myself that it may take awhile, it may take a lot of counselling, but like Gordon, I, too, will one day soar again, confident and strong.
As will all of you.
Thanks for sharing and for listening,
~seaschellz~
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