Letters to McNarc

[Litha]

McNarc,
I almost started this letter “Dear McNarc” but I erased it. There is nothing dear about my feelings for you anymore.

From the perspective of time and no contact, I can see clearly what a horrible, cruel, twisted excuse of a human being you are. You lied to me, you cheated on me, you used me for money. I witnessed you verbally and emotionally abusing every woman in your family, I saw you use your family and friends as if they were your personal ATMs.

I wish there were some way I could protect your niece and sister from your sadism, but there isn't.

I don't wish you well. I wish that every hurt you inflicted on me would return to you threefold. I don't forgive you and I never will -- I don't even feel any need to try. I hate you. I hate every memory of you. Never contact me again

Lit ha

[LettingGo]

Hi Litha, I am still kind of a newbie, what does Mc in McNarc stand for?

How do you feel after writing this?
Are you going to send this?

[Litha]

hi Letting Go,
McNarc is just a pseudonym I made up for my exN (didn't want to use his real name).

I felt better after writing it, lighter, as if some of the anger and bitterness was syphoned off into the post.

I would never send this, even though every word is true. Any communication with him would start the whole cycle over, and I feel as though I have barely even begun to heal.

[LettingGo]

I am so glad you were able to get that junk out. I know it really helps me to get it out.